My blogging has been pretty slim this month. I have had many major decisions to make this month and it really has drained me. The creative bug has been pushed to the back as I have wrestled with decision making.
I have come to the conclusion that I am just not strong enough....
not strong enough to educate my children the way they deserve
not strong enough to be the helper and wife I want to be
not strong enough to be disciplined in my exercise and eating
not strong enough to guide and direct a very beautiful, intelligent 14 year old girl
not strong enough to raise a 9 year old boy who's questions are so deep they scare me
not strong enough to be the mom I need to be for a creative, adorable 11 year old
not strong enough to run a business effectively and efficiently
not strong enough to spend my money wisely
And then God reminds me, "My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness." Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of the Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong.
II Corinthians 12:9-10
So.. I say all that to say, I am very encouraged! If we are honest, we have to admit that our strength is not enough, and the beautiful part is, it doesn't have to be. I will start today in Ephesians 6....
"Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand. Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness; and your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace; above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked. And take the helmet of salvation, and the Sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God: Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saint;